心之所繫。

找工作真的很像是一直在兜圈，平靜--懷抱希望--鬥志高昂--失望--又歸於平靜。

In the past two weeks, I was kind of offered two job offer. Each one disappeared within 5 days. I was excited and so confident and want to tell the world; no longer than a week it was just like a joke.

Getting tired of this feeling but I am not qulified to quit this game. Not until I get something substantial.

The most difficult part here is not accepting my failure but to have no one to talk to at this particular moment. When I just want to swear and shout and let go all the emotion, all I can do is sitting here typing to my screen.

Not that I dont have any friends here. Just I dont want to say it carefully, listening to other's comforting words and they are afraid to hurt me. And facing people's encouragement I need to say : Yes, I will keep trying I will be confident about myself, I know it takes time, ......

I all know and I all will. But I just need some moment to release the downside emotion.

And being alone here just mean I have no other choice than doing this myself.